She's the type of girl that will argue for hours, even when she's wrong. She's the type of girl that will forgive you no matter how much you hurt her. She's the type of girl that will try to impress you as much as she can. She's the type of girl that goes through the most pain, but hides it all with a smile. She's the type of girl willing to try.
I remember when I was little, I would always dream about how perfect life would be when I'm older, but now that I'm older, I wish I could just go back to being a little kid, young and carefree, taking naps and running like crazy on the playground.
I am incredibly awkward and negative. I get attached easily, and I hold on for too long. I don’t like opening up to people. Most 5 year old children can express their feeling better than me. I hide behind my fake smiles. I’m terrified of being hurt. I tend to act older than I am. I’m probably one of the most difficult people you will ever meet. But I can be sweet. I’m a great listener. I’ll guard your secrets with my life. I will never judge you based on your mistakes, and I’ll love you as much as I can. I can be, if you let me, one of the best things in your life.
I'm not looking to fall in love. I'm not even necessarily looking for a boyfriend right now. All I really want is to find a nice, good guy I can text late at night, joke around with, and be stupid with. Someone who likes the same music as me, someone I can easily talk to, someone I can be my total self around and not mind at all. A guy I can waste Friday nights with, laugh with, and have fun with. Someone who's not perfect, but understands me, you know? Is that really too much to ask for?
It sucks to see people flirt with the person you're in love with. It sucks even more to see them flirt back. It makes you question how they feel about you. It makes you question if everything was and still is a lie. It makes your heart ache inside. It makes your whole body feel pain.